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Nightingale’s

Hi again.. It has been more month I guess since my last post about Kimi Raikkonen. Never been better. It’s 19 July. It’s my sister, Eliza’s birthday. Happy 13th birthday darling. May God bless you always and be healthy. Hopefully you are doing good at school. I may gonna call home tonight. My brother and sisters will be back from boarding school today.

It’s not just her birth date, but it’s Grandma’s 3rd year anniversary since she left us. We never celebrate her birthdays since then. Poor girl. It is not her to blame, but we are too grieving even to think about it. Sorry girl.. The wound too deep to heal.

I am sorry Grandma, but I never prepared to lose you. My memories full of you by my side. You raise me, cooked and fed me, bathed me, and you even sung for me to sleep. How can I forget you when my childhood surrounded by you. How can I ever stop thinking or reminisce about you when you are the one who ever pampered us till we’re grown up. How I wish I never left you in the first place so I will stay with you much longer. I know I do sound greed and I can’t change everything. At least I have much more time with her than my younger brothers and sisters. I’m just being greedy.

And the person who love her the most is Mom and Grandpa. Mom is their only child they had before adopting another two son. But they hid it well. How can I say, she took care of us with love. I wasn’t by her side when she left us. She left me after four days I turned 19. But I was there a fortnight before. I accompanied her in the hospital although I had a high fever right after I got back from the hospital. Gosh, I really missed her. I miss to listen to her sing songs for me, recite folklores, and I even miss holding her hand. I miss to hear her lecture, her advices, her smile. I miss kissing her cheek, I miss everything about her. God, I wish I could turn back time. I wanna be with her. Always.

Grandma, I know you heard me up there. And I know that you will always love us just the way you always did. And I am sorry if I ever done anything wrong. I am really, really sorry. I will never forget what you have said and I will keep it with me, always. Deep, bottom of my heart, you will always, always alive in my heart. Forget us not, our beloved Nightingale.. I always pray that you will always stay in our heart.

Rest in peace, Nightingale.. God bless your soul.

my lovely nightingle..i miss u

KALI TERAKHIR KU LIHAT WAJAHMU – UJI RASHID

Dalam dakapan senja
Ku renungi sinar matamu
Berat rasa melepaskan
Dikau pergi

Dingin hembusan bayu
Lemah longlai langkah kakimu
Lambaianmu kian jauh
Dari mata

Malangnya
Bencana menimpa
Kau telah pergi untuk selamanya
Tak kembali

Pada saat terakhir
Ku melihat paras wajahmu
Kau bisikkan hanya sayang
Kepadaku

Malangnya
Bencana menimpa
Kau telah pergi untuk selamanya
Tak kembali

Pada saat terakhir
Ku melihat paras wajahmu
Kau bisikkan hanya sayang
Kepadaku

:: KAR04 ::

Hola!

It’s been so long I didn’t update any news right. So much to share, so much happening and I don’t know where to start. I had promises a lot, I knew but I don’t have much time to write it all over here. Well, I did mention that I went to a camp last post aren’t I? I willing to share a bit of it, how does it goes and perhaps what is going on during the camp. I did enjoy every moment there and I didn’t misses any single activities carries by the organiser. So far the element that they try to blend in every task is obvious. It teaches me a lot, to show loves towards nation, my nationality, race, my Faith, my family, and most importantly to love myself.

We play a lot. The first day we arrived at night. Terenggun, Lipis Pahang welcomed us with its cool, raining night. It’s supposed to be breathtaking but I could not enjoy it much because I have to calm myself (I desperately need to go to WC). I could not bear any longer and I’m afraid I passed there. Luckily I don’t. Haha..

Well, I can’t remember exactly what we had done the next day but what makes it more fun are we doing night-walking that night! And what surprised are on halfway we got to walked on our own with guidance from the rope band and lights they placed all the way to the end. It is very tricky and adventurous. I had holes in my hand due to the thorns I gripped onto and I had scratches on my back (buttock) haha.. It’s extremely funny to remember.

And what I remember the most are we played paint-ball!! Seriously it’s totally fun and adventurous, tricky, not forgetting stunning. The war game is quite a craze to crave for because I do really loves adventurous activity. We played like a real war, trying to save our mates, and it’s quite a happening. With the bomb sounds, shots from various angles, it’s really looks like a war. I still remember what our tour guides told us; ‘shoot ’em till the last breathe’. We did. And the verdict, our enemies are having trouble with the bruises we caused. It almost a week now but the marks remains.. We called it as ‘affection’ from us.

Saying about affection, what caused us to bond together are we shared foods in the same plate, same foods. We cooked and we ate together as one. Everything we do, we must do it as one. One hurts, everyone feels the pain. We lived for six days as a family, treat everyone likewise. No boundaries.

So much to tell but I’m quite tire now. It’s the first week of the semester and of course, it’s a busy week through all the semester. I gotta go now, I’ll try to find times to write soon, ’cause I believe this semester might be tough for me. So gotta to plan earlier. Better late than never, ever heard? Haha..

Oh, but before I leave, there is something I need to confess and will be my next post Insha Allah.. Regarding my new 2012 goal. There might be some changes and I need to fix certain things about myself and I really hope it work and suit me very well. I need an adjustment to make before I reach 21 next year. With new, refreshing year to begin I wish Allah grant me my wishes. I won’t change must but it might be useful for me and for everyone around me too..

so, till meet again. xoxo.

Assalamualaikum.. <3<3<3

P/s : Actually I try to post a few pictures but I had none with me right now, and some pictures of insect that I allergic to, e.g. leeches (just to take a peak freaking me to tremble) and just to think of it makes me vomit. Ugh!*sick*

Happy Holiday Everyone!!

Greeting.

Hello everyone. How are you been doing? I am sure today is a wonderful day, isn’t it. Well it does for us, student of Diploma in TESL Semester 5 1/2011/2012. Today is a big day which mean spending  a few moment with family (and sleep!lol) while waiting for another semester to begin.

Well, this holiday mean a lot to me because this is the only moment I’ve got together with my beloved. Doing everything together means a lot to me since I’ve spent most of my time in campus. Really miss them while I am mile away. Even though its only a minutes I could do anything to get back to them.

It’s officially Awal Muharram, first month of Islam calendar. And you know what, we are going to make barbeque tomorrow night. So they are tons of people coming and its must be a memorable for me!*lame* I know, but I can’t wait!

Till meet again. XOXO